Lately I have been pondering a lot of things. Maybe because it is coming up on the end of the year or maybe it is because when you turn forty you start really reflecting on your life. This particular reflection is about being a dad, a good dad.
I remember when my son was little he would walk beside me. I would be so self-absorbed I would not notice his little hand reaching up to hold mine. What a missed opportunity to provide security for his little heart. I remember another time when he woke me up while we were staying in a missionary apartment in NJ. I was so tired and angry that I was ugly to him. Maybe my blood sugar was high. Maybe I was just having a bad morning. Whatever the case, he got something he did not deserve. Lastly, I remember when he was five and I was working full-time and planting Open Arms Baptist Church. I was tired, angry, and frustrated with the world. I tucked him in one night and he said, “Dad, you do not like me, do you?” My response, “Bud, I like you and I love you, Dad is sorry for making you feel this way.”
That was enough! I decided that I would never, ever hear those words from my child again. I had to make some changes. Over the last six years I have made those changes. I take every opportunity to hold my children’s hands & I try really hard not to take my moods out on my kids (or my wife for that matter). I give myself to them so they have no doubt that the D.A.D.D.Y. not only loves them, but genuinely likes them. How did I do it? One word: Christ!
Philippians 4:13, “I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.” I sought the face of God and I begged Him to give my wife and my kids a better daddy and a better husband.
I asked God to forgive me and then I asked Noah to forgive me! They both forgave all. Why is it I have had such a hard time forgiving myself? This morning I figured it out. My sin has been covered by the blood of Christ and God no longer sees it. However, the enemy tugs on my past and tries to get me to uncover it with a thick film of guilt.
That is not what God has for me or for you. He wants us to ask for forgiveness from Him and those we wronged, even our children. Reconciliation is God’s plan! Stagnating in a pond of guilt and shame is the devils plan.
God always has His hand ready to grab ahold of ours. Because of Jesus we will never get what we deserve! Finally, He not only loves us, He desires a relationship with us. Do you get it? He likes you and wants you!
Maybe you are like me and are living with relational regrets and are wondering what you do about it. Humble yourself and seek forgiveness then cover it with the Blood and walk away from it. It no longer belongs to you it belongs to Christ!
